#melucky

The best thing could ever happen in this world is you've fall in love with your bestfriend,
and found out he's also madly in love with you.. <3
2102-2012 is THE DAY.

#mehappyluckgirl
#smooches <3

love&peace,

x o x o.

ommo!!

This song made my day for the passed few days, it's a sad song, as you can see hear , but for me is not that sad, but idk, its kinda like a food for the soul, good music can feed our souls, indeed.
#le talk like a wiseman :p




Life is.......idk, seems like i've been talking about 'life' 'life' and 'life' where i didn't really lived my life to the very max, i guess i didn't. hmm.
I've been claimed that I'm so busy, I didn't attend my ex-classmate's CNY gathering, i didn't attend my bunch of machi's gathering, I think 99.99999999% of the gatherings I'd missed.
I'msowrong, pleaseforgiveme.
Not that I'm vain after joining the dance scene, not that i don't have any heart on them anymore, not that I've forgotten them after i get to meet new friends, not that I think I'm too awesome for them, not that I'm THAT busy, tho.


Just that is my personal problem that I can't arrange my schedule perfectly, or not even close to 'accordingly', my daily schedule is very very very messy, I had trainings, practices, shows, competitions all over, I haven't get quality time to sit down quietly, peacefully to arrange and sort out everything slowly.
I had to find a job,
I had to meet back my old friends,
I had to spent more time with my family instead of facing the lappie,
I had to spent more time with my lovely friends instead of using majority of my awaking time in a dance studio practicing for shows and competitions,
I had to spent more time with my dearest bff,
I had to talk to my dearest LCY & Ed bro, i missed both of them, badly.

I wanted to go to a beach for so long time,
I wanted to smell the smell of seawater,
I wanted to listen to the sea's lullaby,
I wanted to sit in a quite place with my bff, no talking, just musics,
I wanted to have a walk in the country side,
I wanted to have a photography trip, like last time we Simple people used to do.

I want my life to be more accordingly, I don't want to look back and regretted for wasting this precious period of my life, I'll arrange it all over after next week's competition, next sunday, it's coming, it's near, it's going to be a better life. Ipray, hard.

off to practice now, takecareguys, love y'all .

L0VE&PEACE
x o x o

and it started here...

A very good moooooooooooooorning folks!

Today is the 2nd day for my kantoi brother Mr FelixDgg's college life, he's in his class now and i'm currently sitting and blogging about this in Taylor's Old Town Kopitiam #likeaboss, listening to Queen's & Chilli's song, like oh-so-old-school-rock-and-troll, or else i think imma gonna fall asleep wtf. lolls.

i'm gonna have this, and 'enjoy' until his break, 12:00 #whootzwtf.


'Today i don't feel like doing anything', cuz i get a lil frustrated this morning cuz dad keep asking me to faster faster, and that Felix thing keep gimme that screw-you-imma-gonna-be-late-face where he's going out almost 2hrs before his schedule, and like usual, i don't give an eff, i know its bad, but i just take my fcukin' piece of time to do my thing cuz i know subang's traffic so effing well, its impossibruuuu to get late even you start to travel on 07:40,
and then! silence in the car, like i expected when we get mad of each other,
but then! we turned friends again after we reached Taylor's, juuuuuuust like what i've thought, kudos for the superb accurate future prediction. *chuckles*

 

Today is the first 10th day of year 2012, time flies like wtf, the day i went to Christmas countdown wan like just a week ago, and i just realize i've been saying 'time flies like xxx' for a dozen times in the past few entries, gosh cuz it rearry is!!

I should rearrry find a weekday job, better still i could off work around 18:00 cuz in that case it won't be crushing all my training schedule and stuff, really feel like walking zombie everyday if i continue like this, really wasting of my effing-not-much-left-youth *ahem*, i'm still 2Oyrs old and 6 more days to 2 months kayyyy?!
p/s: screw that number 2* infront of my age, i heit you muchmuch!!

Owh and here is a photo of this girl, sitting and blogging from early morning O9 till now..teehee.

just to show that why we had to buy a proper camera instead of relying on ur web cammie, trolled! :D

Till then,

Lotsa Love!

x o x o ♥

it's been awhile

Heya, i broke my promise, once again, for not updating my bloggie..i'm kinda busy, but, it just and only because i'm lazy, gahahahaha!! *epic phailed

So here i am, staying up at O2:3Oam just to grant my promises.
ahh bullshyts, cuz she tried to sleep 1hour ago, but forgotten she'd taken a nap in the evening, gahahahahaha. fml *evil laughs*

Eventually my lil bro Mr FelixDgg gonna start his college life in Taylor's Lakeside Campus tomorrow, i'm 'forced' to be the driver-for-ze-prince for his whole period of training, fml..and as for my dad's point of view, it would be 'much more advisable' if i could find a job that managed to 'fit in' all his class schedule in order to fetch him on and off school, pretty ridicules huh??
it's kinda like my life will be surrounding him..not to say that im unwilling, but heyyyyyyyyyyy i got my life to live on kayy?? i had dance trainings, friends to meet, stuffs to do, you're asking me to pull everything out just because of this reason?!
894365024650286508434154545.99times no, no, NO NO NO NO, for God's sake..
me really wanna scream out like :'DAAAAAAAAAD!! you're son is already a grown up, he could fcukin' manage his own transport to college, and do you ever wonder that i had my own things to do rather than being his personal-everyday-from-home-to-college driver??
i do respect you fully as my dad, but then, ｐｌｅａｓｅ．．．．．．．．geez, omfg..... '

but frankly speaking, i was kinda overwhelmed back then on my lil brother's orientation day, after sending him to Taylor's, while i was on my way walking from the campus to the parking lot, i kinda flashed back to the very moment where we're still in high school together, and he was still in high school uni's,
then he was sitting for SPM,
then he finished his SPM,
then now, he's in college,
time flies faster then........then i aged, (thats what i hope..LOLs!!)
i meant like seriously, it's just like a blink, then waalahh, you grew older, and older..
#shutthefcukupbitch :p

As i think back over again,
it's been awhile, since i had someone that i can really talk to
it's been awhile, since i'm the healthy old me
it's been awhile, since i cried
it's been awhile, since i laugh like nobody's business
it's been awhile, since i had s person called soulmate, or take me as his/her soulmate
it's been awhile, since i really take care of myself
it's been awhile, since i hugged someone, or i'd never do
it's been awhile, since someone hugged and kissed me, the sincere once
it's been awhile, since i last go to a church
it's been awhile, since i pray
it's been awhile, since i fall for someone
it's been awhile, since i loved
it's been awhile, since i feel the love from others
it's been awhile, since i had a dream that i'm so gonna acheive ot no matter what
it's been awhile, since i talk to myself, and try to fighure out what i really want, and what i really need
and
it's been awhile, since i blogged..

its O3 in the morning right now, guess i hadda hit the sack before its too late, and 93846591375987.99%-ly i'm gonna have a hard time waking up, geez.
safe me pls. :p

till then,
nitey nite everyone!

ignore the messy-ness, lolls. :D






Lotsa Love!

x o x o ♥

teaser'teaser

Peeps!!

Supposing-ly i should be posting and updating my new bloggie, but ahhhh life is too busy! :(

Just a quick update about my weekend, epic tight tight TIGHT schedule for this bloody 2months, will be back asap! *pinkie promise*

25th Nov_

18OO-2O3O _ Training @ Street Nation Studio, Puchong

21OO-223O _ Training @ Freedom Studio, Setapak

233O-O1OO _ Partay Rock @ Neverland Club, KL

O1OO-club close _ Partay Rock @ M.O.S, Sunway

26th Nov _

O7OO-15OO _ Wedding Photographer&Videographer @ Edmund+Sushi's wedding, Kepong

163O-22OO _ TVCommercial Shooting @ WuGuan, Cheras

23OO-OO3O _ Boy's Birthday Bash @ Alive, KL
OO3O-club close _ Partay Rock @ M.O.S, Sunway

I bloody promised to myself I'll definitely-hundred-percently rest gaogao after i quit my job as Tiger Airways ticketing consultant, for God's sake!

I SERIOUSSSSSSSSSLY NEED REST!! 

my health condition is getting worst and worst, fml.

So guys, take good care of y'all, stop being racist, stop underestimating hiphop culture, and start drink more mtfking water!

signing off.

Lotsa Love!

x o x o ♥

to my dearest
Mr.Anonymous

i hate the way u said

'i luv u ^^'

cuz u never meant it

but i did believed it

u stupid liar

fcuk you

and double fcuk you

o7o311

 ..I'm back!! this will be a short update about today, so this will be a fresh fresh blog, compared to others. haak haak!!

Mom screamed me up from my bed this morning, well, 10am, cuz she can't stand my current job, house guard (mentioned from last post), so i woke up, brushed myself, ate my bfast, talked to myself awhile,i did, thinked about my future, open my lappie, blogged about it.

It's almost 14OOhour now, trying hard to figure out my future, what i want, what's my passion, where's my passion, try to chat with others see whether i could find my way thru it. I don't wanna ruin my life, cuz we have only 1 life, and i want it to be the best life of all, depressed depressed.

____________________________________________________________________________

..A good news for myself, I'm having my first dance class EVERR!!

And tonight it's the night!! I'll be taking 2 dance classes at once at Freedom Dance Studio ,

[i] Street Jazz class, 19OO-2oOO by Noel Nah

and comin' wednesday, 

[ii] HipHop class, 213O-223O by Teshimine

It's gonna be so happenin' and i'm lookin' forward for it!! cant wait till tonight!!!!

see y'all on tha dance floor!!

 

LOVE&PEACE

x o x o ♥

aloha to dilemma mood

..well, i know, i did swallowed back what i've promised in last update, I'm-just-kinda-kinda-lazayy..lolls~


 ..Well!! apparently, I'm working as a full time house guard, for my own house, don't ask how, don't ask why..but since i'm too overloaded with free time, so imma tell u. this girl do crap alot.

How? cuz i hired myself!! *gahahaha~*
Why? cuz i'm still in dilemma whether to continue my studies OR go to work, and in this mean while, imma rest at home and be the JOTM-junk of the moment.




But back then, i faced the most problematic problem of all time -- i stayed at home for tooooo effing longgg!! and my parents dosen't like it!!
then i think back :' eh ya o..i've stayed at home for two-going-to-be-three-month (or it's been 3months ald??) ', and i should really reallyyyy get a job, get hired, or get married *aikss touch-wood*


I noticed i've been spending too much of time, doing....... 
n-o-t-h-i-n-g..nothing at all!!



You might be, definitely be thinking :' whut-tha-hyll is happening with this girl?! why is she doing nothing and staying at home?!'

Come, lemme tell'ya whats in my head,
1stly, I don't really sure that taking up courses or expose myself to working environment first is the better choice, i wanted to work is bcz i don't wanna spent another penny of my parents already, i meant like, after i worked, saved money, i can still go study, parents spent too much of blood-money on education fees on myself, brother and sis. I know they're more then willing to spent on these things, but i understands it's still considered a burden for them, i'm not born in a super wealth family but i still want my family to have a better better life ♥, that's why i keep refused to pay visit for any education fairs and campus open days after my SPM. But, de javu, i faced the exact same problem after my STPM, now i know, it's not the matter of expensive fees, nor years will be spent in colleges that matters, the only problem is MYSELF, i kept think too much too much and eventually blocked myself, i wanted to save time, end up wasting more time. FML.


2ndly, I'm not sure that university wanted me or not, cuz if i'm qualified enough for universities, i'll just go for it, for the sake of my parents purse, for real. If i'm not qualified enough for university, i hadda go for college, then that's another issue. So the problem now is i'm stucking in between of college or university, university or college, college or university, university or college...arghh!!


3rdly, I don't wanna go for colleges so fast is because I'm still in dilemma about the subject i wanna take, is either related to art but not fully related to art, like art management, cinematography or stuffs like that ; or, mass comm, major film and tv. I know i might regretted if i picked up a subject that i don't realllyyy loved, but after talking to some of my friends, found out that everyone experienced this before, even thou u've picked up a subject that u don't fully like, lets say like 5O/5O, but after trying to understand it, in the end u might just love it. So i hope it goes the same to the potential choice of mine.


4thly, if it's really so unlucky that i phailed to enter university, i hadda go for colleges and then dillema again in between diploma or degree, degree or diploma. Diploma, i shouldn't had choosing this if i'd never go for STPM, cuz STPM is almost equivalent to diploma, i can get a degree course with STPM cert, but a lot of others said that :' degree is for those who wanted to know more about that particular subject, cuz degree is mainly focused to what they've learned in diplomas deeper, and more specific.' .Dilemma, again..
But back then, diploma is seriously 'tak cukup makan', u get what i meant?? aiisk..



5thly, 6thly....i think i'm sorta like finding excuses for myself, goshh..pray for me!!

ciao for awhile.

LOVE&PEACE

x o x o ♥